A(NU) Thought

सच कहते हैं लोग, life का कोई भरोसा नहीं, कभी भी कुछ भी हो सकता हैं. Especially, पिछले २ सालों ने तो यहीं सीखा हैं. इतना तो समज में आगया हैं की, nothing is permanent and nothing stays forever. Actually ना today, I am gonna be a little upfront in my conversation.  Just Imagine this - आज हम किसी के साथ बैठे हैं, हस - खेल के बातें कर रहे हैं and suddenly that person just vanishes… and हम उसी जगह पर बैठें हैं, अकेले... shocked and wondering वह कहाँ चलें गए, अभी तो बातें पुरी भी नहीं हुई थीं. 

Image source Yes, you heard that right? What are your superpowers? Now don’t think of Iron man, or Wolverine, or Thor and Jean Grey. I am asking about the real-life superpowers that exist very much in common people like you and me. Got you thinking, right?   Let me clarify with an example. बचपन में मैंने काई बार माँ को बिना चिमटे के stove पर रोटी फूलाते देखा था . मुझे लगता था she is fire-proof… Hahaha. But as I grew up, I realized her superpower is not being fire-proof, but the warmth that exudes from her. Every day when I used to reach home in the evening after a long day of work and travel, she would open the door for me and welcome me home with her warm and comforting smile. मेरा सारा stress दरवाजे के बहार ही निकल जाता था .   Happens right, some people have that effect on you and you too have such an effect on others. Now that is what I would call a Superpower’.     

There’s a single-seater white झूला occupying the space in my house balcony (yes,  my house has  balconies.  Not one but two! ). I have always loved the thought of having a झूला in a balcony or a veranda in a house. It has been one of my most desired things on the list of home décor, or essentials, actually. This झूला bought on amazon made with wood and the white rope is very special to me; it’s like what I would call “my space”. I can sit on it for hours together doing things that like (reading, surfing, chatting, listening to music) or just not doing anything. Simply staring at the horizon. Mostly, I sit on it thinking of everything that is possible – the past, present, and future. It is very relaxing and calming, you see, just sitting there with a cup of morning tea or evening coffee.   

Image Source  हाँ, हम रोज़ मिलते हैं, बातें भी रोज़ होती हैं, कुछ तुम्हारी, कुछ मेरी, इधर उधर की, ढेर सारी चाय की वह दो प्यालियाँ भी हमारे खिस्से सुनते-सुनते खाली हो जाती हैं. वैसे ये तो हर रोज़ की बात हैं, हमेशा से यहीं होता आ रहा हैं, पर अब कुछ कमी सी लगती हैं, कुछ तो हैं जो अधूरा हैं तुम पहले भी ज्यादा बोलती थी, अब भी बोलती हो, पर कुछ कहती नहीं हो, कुछ तो हैं जो कहती नहीं हो. तुम अब भी मुस्कुराती बहुत हो, पर हस्ती नहीं हो. हँसी अगर आ भी जाये, तो होटों को छू कर चली जाती हैं, कभी आँखो तक नहीं पहुँचती.   मेरी एक सलाह मानो, तो कभी खुल के बात करना, मुझसे न कर सको तो, तो खुद से ही करना। जरूरी हैं.   तुम शायद भीड़ में उन बातों को भुला देना चाहती हो, पर अकेलेपन में वहीँ बातें फिर बहार आना चाहती होंगी. कभी कभी भीड़ से ज्यादा अकेलेपन सच्चा साथी होता हैं. अकेलेपन से दोस्ती कर के देखो, उन् सारी बातों को बहार निकाल के देखों शायद तुम्हारी पुरनी वाली बेबाक हंसी भी फिर बहार आजाए.     

Picture Source It hurts right, reading about an unexpected death? Even more when the death of the person is suicide because of depression…gets worse when it is someone who you thought had everything sorted in life… a life you could only dream of. Did you feel lucky, for you may not be going through such trauma to take your own life? Sorry I know that’s a harsh one. But (at the risk of being named as heartless) I do feel fortunate that I have people around me who I can trust would listen to me, whether or not they can provide any solution. Yes, there are many of us who share posts and messages, saying “we are here to listen, please come and talk to us if you need.” But really is that enough? Though we are all here to help, willingly, but are we all equipped enough?

Ever wondered, why do we love the one we do? 'Why do I love you?' I am sure many people, who have ever been in a relationship would have got this thought. It could be for different reasons. But when I think (to myself) that ‘why do I love you?’ or ‘why am I still in love with you?’ I (my heart) feel the need to answer myself (my brain) with a logical and practical reason.  Image clicked by Kishor HS.

I don’t get tired; no really, I do not get tired or bored at all narrating our story to anyone. Infact every new person I meet, I try to grab this opportunity to talk about us – You and I!   And I surprise myself when I realise that I still remember it all so well. Every single detail of 4 years of friendship, 4 years of long-distance relationship, and 7 years of being married. Well, can’t really say that about the last 7 years :P, but the first 8 years are like embedded in my DNA. Pic clicked by Sudipto Roy I think our story is unique. It’s beautiful. Just 15 years old but so much has changed in this one and half-decade. Or not much?

It's difficult no matter what you do, at times, it gets more difficult. You get up in the morning loathing to run pass the mountain-like huge day ahead, and what after that? Another same day. Every morning you try to begin a new day. You repeat to yourself that you gonna  stay optimistic, not get bothered by other's opinion, or hassled by what they are bitching about you, or not get bogged down by their nasty comments. You promise yourself, that today will be a new day, happy and stress-free (though, full of work). You command yourself that today you will do good work and important ones too.  And you do all the possible things to let the positive aura surround you. It sure does. But then, how do deal with stubborn people who you cannot avoid. These people have something against you, for unknown reasons. These are the people who like to put you down, because they can't do anything good themselves to rise high. Perhaps they feel you are an easy target and smirkingly bing...

"Our eyes met, making our hearts melt... It happened then.. and it happens even today... after 9 years of togetherness and two years of our marriage... and it will happen forever." "Dull, sad, and grey my life would have been without you. You bring the much-needed light, enthusiasm, excitement, and fun to me every day. With you, I know I will live my life and not just survive. Love U."

Article is dated: July 2016 This article was also published in  Writers Ezine  in December 2015 Well, December is when we celebrate our marriage anniversary :)    ------------------------- Picture Source It’s been three years since we are married and time just flies...yeah that’s a very clichéd line...perhaps I will say the same thing after 13 years and even after 30 years. 3..13..30 are all numbers modified into years and months and days, what actually counts is how we spend this time.  These 365 x 3 days gone by has left a lot of learning for me. Well, every day brings some sort of learning if one is ready to learn. These three years has not only taught me about our relationship but has also helped me analyze myself and yes understand you better too. :) The striking question

Dated: March 2013 For the first time in two months, the Kannada movie song sounded melodious to my ears. Of course, the Volvo bus drivers love it and that explains their preference for Kannada music over Bollywood songs. The radio stations were playing mushy love songs, as I gather from the lyrics that mentioned the word "preeti" more often. After all, it was Valentine’s Day. Until last year this day just used to be like any other day.